Welcome to the board SUSU! It's wonderful having you here because on this board, you are among 'true friends'. People who don't judge others based on their beliefs or lack thereof.
Also, you are truly blessed to have this 'break' from the troof at such an early age. Take advantage of the down time to do some research on the org and decide for yourself whether it is THE TRUTH, and if you want to spend your life dedicated to an organization. Many on this board have wasted their youth in the org only to find out that the truth we were taught to believe in, wasn't really the truth at all.
Warm hugs susu ... you're going to be fine. You have your whole life ahead of you and now, the decisions are in YOUR HANDS, not the hands of some impersonal body of governors who are far removed from the realities of life.
sweet tee